May 4, 2008.
So, it has come to my attention that I need to stop apologizing and just do what I do and shut-up, or just blog. I spend waaaay too much time apologizing for not posting, not writing well and not doing what I planned on doing. I wish I could be more like my dog, Pixel - she looks me right in the eye all the time., and a seems to be saying , "You talking to me?" The need to please (as my husband says) is an issue I have...he is probably right. And, I sort of assume some peeps are a bit peeved and throwing their paint covered hands in the air and saying, "enough already'" about my posts. Sorry, yes again - I am um, sorry for being sorry, uh sort of a strange thing to write - but I am going to try and not apologize for what I am doing, or not doing. Damn I did it again - sorry, I mean no, I am not sorry for being sorry....shoot! Here are a few reasons (or excuses if you must) for why I have been doing what I do, or not doing what I said I was going to do, sheesh:
The Perfect Cheer.....er uh Post
When I started this blog I thought I knew what it would become. I had a vision, I had a plan...I guess it was like having that ol' birth plan we all had with our first pregnancy - you know how that turns out. I had no idea that this blog would not always be what I wanted it to be. I had no idea what would strike a cord, and what post would put readers to sleep. I also more importantly felt that I had to put a large number of hours into each post - make it the best post ever! Two years later I am a tad bit wiser and realize that I don't have to pour my heart and soul (and 476 words) into each post. Well, I still try and write good posts, but I realize I can't write the Great Gatsby every week, nor do I want to....and really, I am not that great a writer.
Too Many Projects to Focus
As of right now I am seriously on overload, over drive and I have started way too many projects. I don't know why I chose right now to open an Etsy store, go to a show, place an ad, pursue 5 licensing projects, put up new products, re-do website, go after sales channels....and get a new puppy. All of these things I have um, well tried to pursue since January of 2008....ya read a bit side-tracked and going in 32 different directions. The word over-achiever and crazy have passed my friends lips one too many times this year, but uh this is where I am.
Puppy Fever
Yes it is true, I have Puppy Fever and to be honest I have had puppies on the brain since um a year ago. We started checking out websites, breeders and Rescue Dog sites since January. I knew we would get a puppy this Spring or Summer and have spent many a night (or maybe a few hours at work) surfing the net searching for my little pup. It was a fun search, sometimes frustrating but a family affair for sure. We are officially finished searching....
Puppy Parties
We picked up our little Beagle puppy on Friday morning and we named her Stella. And, yes I am having a hard time calling her Stella and not yell, "STELLLLLA!!". She is a cutie-patotie and we love her to death already. She has settled in just fine at the crazy Lentzner home, we have had a trail of people visiting to prove it. My sister, the self-proclaimed Dog Whisperer of San Mateo County claims puppies need to meet a 100 people in the first hundred days of their life to be I guess good dogs. If that is correct Stella has met about 54 in the last 48 hours so we are moving right along.
We had a little casual dinner party last night (hence the blow-up cactus in the for Cindo de Mayo in the corner), and
more people over tonight (just family). I am squeezing this blog in between visitors.
At least she takes a nap every hour or so and we (that would be me) get a break. Oh, and the fact that her little face melts my heart and she has had like no accidents in the house....yet. I am sure I will be forced to create some beagle inspired products for the fall, I mean really how can I help myself?
I hope everyone had as fun a weekend as I did. Oh wait, I hope you all got more sleep then I did - this little pumpkin whimpers and I jump out of bed like a crazy lady (yes four times last night). The term punch - drunk tired is not just for new mom's of babies....
Wow. You actually write very well.
That need to please, and be liked by everyone, and apologize, and explain... I can relate. I'm sure many women can relate. But you blog it really well. Not everyone can write about it so well.
I am one of your subscribers now, and trust me, I am NOT expecting daily masterpieces. Just some honest writing that gets me thinking about my own life. You seem do be great at that. :)
Posted by: Vered - MomGrind | May 05, 2008 at 09:19 AM
You've been on my "blogs to check regularly" list for awhile now - and i always enjoy reading what you have to say and adoring your cute artwork. Thank you for taking the time to amuse and inspire all of us readers!
:) and may i add, could Stella be any cuter??
Posted by: amanda | May 07, 2008 at 11:12 AM
You continue to inspire and amaze me!! I am so often in the same boat - I am a people pleaser. I even find myself only wanting to blog about the positives and not bring others down, because I always want to make everyone happy. You have done a fabulous job of keeping it real and sharing your story, and I enjoy every post (as few or many as there may be!). Keep up the great work!
Amber
RuffleBlog.com
Posted by: Amber at RuffleButts | May 07, 2008 at 11:36 AM
Oh, can I please add...Stella is absolutely adorable!!
Posted by: Amber at RuffleButts | May 07, 2008 at 11:38 AM
Love, love, love that sweet little new puppy of yours!
I can completely identify with lots of projects taking you in different directions! Gotta love the challenge of it all, though, don't you?!
Missy
Posted by: Missy | May 08, 2008 at 10:05 AM
Hey Jamie!!! I could have written this same thing (except the puppy part!), but all about being on overload and beating myself up for not doing more (isn't it YOU who always tells me to not be so hard on myself???). It's the over-achievers in us, I know I'm personally always thinking I can do more more more...but it's not true. Now, like you, I'm going "what have I done?"
Yet, we plug on and on..
Also, how the heck do you keep your blog banner updated so well? seems like it's always new.
Happy Mother's Day!
Posted by: Amber Star | May 10, 2008 at 07:23 AM
So nice to get to know you..lots of cool things happenning hear..love your heart..that soccer event will be so cool..just add glitter...Jennifer
Posted by: jennifer Paganellli | June 15, 2008 at 03:34 PM